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people come and go throughout your life, but today i lost the most amazing person ive ever known. how i feel about this i just dont know. i love her. being without her feels like something thats wrong.  to live to love to lust i dont know anymore. maybe my problem was i always needed to know. maybe my life was always on the plan. i once read one day that "your life goes bye while your planning it" maybe thats what needs to change. less planning and more doing. i dont know how to explaine how i feel. moving seems pointless without u in my life, but having these plans and dreams are so inportant to me. but change is what i need. a change of heart? or a change of dreams? maybe just 9-5 and growing old, never making a name for myself. maybe i am just shane ivers......